31 July 2007

#16 10/12/04 -- 3/4/08

I can’t wrap my mind around this thesis yet. I’m still not sure what I want to say. This paper [on JM Synge] seems more difficult than the time I have to complete it in.

Needing a day to immerse myself in research, and I don’t have time.

I want to break the mold.


9 August 2007

Feeling sad today. My last day here and my emotions are mixed. I don’t want to go home; I’m ready to go home and see Mike + Belle + feel normal; I wish was staying here until Sunday. Of course, I have regrets already. I wonder how I’ll feel when I am back home — that life sort of stopped while I was here.

I drive my obsessions into Synge, my thesis, Front Porch, and the new semester.

19 October 2007

photo-18City of you — somewhere, I walk on the sidewalks here covered in fall, those red leaves I swore I’d never leave and I did.
If I could erase the space that is between us. I might no longer desire you, so says Carson. But I only dream of tearing you apart to jump inside you, to be there sucking on your heavy heart.